Looking up...

Yesterday I have to admit that I cried most of the day and I could deal with life but today has been much better. We have still gone a few rounds but lets just say maybe all that crying helped. I keep reminding myself that I love her and she loves me and I am a good mommy!

I always say that she is just like her dad but maybe just maybe there is a little bit of my stubborn charm in there!

Plus it doesn't help that I have a terrible cold and cant sleep for crap! I am so ready for summer!!!

Dear Journal,

My nearly 2 and 1/2 year old daughter just told me "you don't love Ronnee" while I was trying to get her to nap. Does this shit really start this young???

Love,

Me

P.s. Yesterday probably won Mom of the Year Award when I put headphones on for 2 hours so that I wouldn’t have to listen to her whine because she was refusing to go to the bathroom! She isn’t constipated just hates pooping! 

I am not sure how or if I am going to handle having 2 kids but but God please help me!

35 Weeks!!!

I am sticking out so far!!

Here I am with Ronnee…

Way more popping out this time then that time!

Dont know what to say about how everything is going. My hormones are kicking my butt and I cant seem to stop crying! And my patience is shot! Can you get postpartum depression before you even have the kid?

Swimming with the Fewkes'

I watched Justin and Kayla when we lived in San Jose and they were up at Tahoe for a few days so we took a trip up there to see them. It was so fun to see the kids, they are growing up so fast.  Ronnee had a good time swimming even though she hated wearing her swimsuit. So for the first little bit she was in a diaper then then she pooped so she had to wear it and thru the biggest fit and then finally relaxed!

It was pretty sad to go up to Tahoe and they didn’t have very much snow at all. I think there was more in our front yard!  Hopefully they have some now that we have had some storms roll thru!

Need to plan a trip to San Jose this summer to see all of our friends!

Tyler

Tyler has been doing awesome at work and got a new hospital to go prime with Cardinal. Not sure what that ll means but I do know that he gets a bonus and he will be make millions of more dollars for Cardinal so his commissions will go up!!! Also he said it should be able to bring back a couple jobs that were let go when they lost CHW! We are so proud of him and so are all of his coworkers. They keep taking him to lunch! Lucky! 

So he wanted to celebrate with some friends so we had some friends over last weekend. The kids played and had a good time and so did the men! And we women had a great time visiting and catching up. We hadn’t seen Brandy and Justin and Haleigh for a long time!

The 2 wild girls and there blankets!

Children's Museum

We finally went to the cool Children’s Museum here in Reno. Thanks for the invite Jeri. The girls all had a lot of fun and I know we will be going back plenty more once I can move faster and on a day that not all the kids are our of school!

So much for the kids to do! Made for good naps!

Ronnee

Ronnee Ronnee Ronnee… what I am going to do with this little girl.  Before I go and tell the goods and bads we are having I better post some cute pics of her sweet face. It is no wonder God made her so cute with some of the headaches she causes!

I donna help you otay!

I go outside with Dinnah! I get my shoes! And note she can already run in heels! And yes we still wear our Christmas Jammies and will until they dont fit!

Whares my Hawse! She always has a horse and 99% of the time we are watching a horse movie. Her favorites are the Man From Snowy River.

Now to what I want to remember and for her to know when she grows up.

Little Girl there is nothing wrong with pooping. Everyone does it and it is good for your body.  About every 2 or 3 days we go through the “my belly hurtin” or “I hold you” or “i cold” all these translate to I need to poop really bad so will you hold me all day so that I can avoid it!  We do have some weeks where she will go on her own even and not even tell me or even in a public bathroom but for the last few weeks we have been going through this lovely ordeal! And it isn’t as if she is constipated because she has always had very runny poop (sorry) and still does when she finally goes. When we got to the 5 day mark and all she did is cry all day I resorted to giving her and Enigma.  So nasty and she hates it but yet somehow forgets it! Please sweet little thing remember that pooping is not scary. Nasty yes but then so is drinking out of the dogs water with them and you dont mind doing that!

Another thing… Naps and bedtime are also good for you and everybody does it or wants to!   We have just recently, yes I know, moved Ronnee into her room and her big bed! Tyler didn’t want her to go and I needed the support to move her! We have our good nights and days and our bad ones. Some nights she goes down like a dream and doesn’t wake up until morning. Other times she has nightmares or something and she fights forever to fall asleep. She normally cries for whoever is not putting her to sleep, or she needs a drink, or needs to go pee. She is one smart cookie. Ty tends to fall for the potty one because he doesn’t want to get peed on in the night. Which has only happened once and it was with him. So for the first 2 weeks one of us would sleep in there with her. Now we are to the getting her to sleep and leaving her and if she wakes up one of us takes her back in there and lays with her. Lets hope she gets consistent at sleeping thru the night!

When it comes to clothing… Jeans, Skirts, Dresses, Jackets, Swimsuits, Anything with a button/zipper real or fake, and long shirts are all cute things to wear and wont kill you!   I didn’t know that kids had such huge opinions about things when they were this young. She used to just throw a fit when I would force them on her and then run to the other room and strip. Now she examines all her clothes after I get them out for her to wear. Seriously it is winter and you need more then a not zip up sweatshirt!  Please grow out of this or at least give some of the clothes a try before you freak out and act like someone took your horse!

Well okay those are the main issues we are having at this time besides your normal terrible 2 tantrums over nothing but she does have some sweet qualities!

I really need to write all these down to remind myself of why I like her and dont want to sell her to the gypsies!

For one… she is very considerate. She makes sure that everyone in the room has a toy to play with. She even will let you have one of her horse. And if you end up with a horse she wants she will bring you something to trade for it. It helps a lot that we have a little boy here with her all the time, so she had to learn this quick or spend her day in time out crying.

She is very very loving and cuddly. She loves to lay by me and cuddle and every couple seconds she turns around and kisses me.  When I tell her that I love her she says “i lub you TO.” And she loves telling the people she talks to on the phone that she loves them and they need to come to her house! The other night we were skyping with Hannah and she made Hannah go find her shoes and put them on and told her “ come to my house.” It was sad after because she ran to the window and was watching for her! She wouldn’t stop kissing Josh and Caleb when we were skyping them and she loves talking to Snakes and Mimi and tells them to get there shoes! 

She is so so smart! When she just has one of her horses she asks “where’s my nother hawse.” She talks and uses so many phrases that just amaze me! She wont to do things on command but out of the blue she will tell you that she has 3 horses. It used to drive me crazy that she wouldn’t count for me but I know she is learning. She is just to darn stubborn and smart and loves to drive me crazy just like her Dad!

Sweet little Ronnee if we are having such a hard time now how in the HELL are we going to make it to and thru teenage hood!

Walking…

So for the year 2011 I walked/ran 340.2 miles!! Pretty darn awesome. And so my goal for the year 2012 is to walk 365 miles. So basically at least a mile for everyday of the year!  So far this year I walk 38.8 miles in January and I am at 16 miles for the month of February. So I am doing pretty good.I have walk just over 200 miles this pregnancy!  I have noticed that as I my belly grows in size the longer it takes to walk my mile a day. And for now I only make myself go a mile a day because I am so huge and waddling is not that fun! Lets just say I cant wait to be done so I can walk like a normal person at a good pace!  

I do feel much better on days that I get a nice good walk in! And was able to finish almost all of my big projects except for the kitchen table so hopefully I can get that done this week!  And then I can get my deep cleaning list done and then all I will have to worry about it keeping up the house work until the baby comes!!!

33 weeks!

Well in a couple days but close enough! I went to the doc today and the baby sounded good and I am measuring right on schedule!  She said she would induce up to a week early but I cant because we have to wait for the parents to get here darn it! But at least I know now that she will/can induce or strip my membranes as soon as they all get here and get this baby out!

A week and a half ago I went in for an ultra sound because the babies kidney’s were enlarged. Well the next day my doctor called to inform me that the babies kidney’s were still enlarged. I was kind of in a little bit of shock because I just assumed they would go back to normal size. My doc told me that I needed to contact my Pediatrician so he knows what is going on. As soon as I got off of the phone I called him and later that day he returned my call. I told him what was going on and he said he need to get the results and know the gender and that he would get that info and get back to me… Well a week went by of me calling him to remind him and him telling me he was waiting for my doc to send him the stuff. Meanwhile I am trying not to stress because I really dont know how common this is or how serious it is. Well when I went to my doc today she asked who my pediatrician is and I told her that he has been trying to get a hold of her and the results for a week. She said she hadn’t heard a thing. Well turns out her office staff is a little flakey! So now that my doctor knew what was going on she sent them to him herself. So this afternoon I got a message from the pediatrician that I shouldn’t stress that they were in fact enlarged but not to bad. He will do an ultra sound on the baby after he/she is born but I shouldn’t lose sleep over it. So for now I will just sleep not really I am pregnant but I will stop worrying and we will see what happens after!

New Year’s Goals

I had the idea to at the beginning of each month to write about how I am doing on my goals.

One goal was try new recipes and cook more… I have tried a few new recipes and I have been cooking more. It helps that I make menu for the week or at least write down a few ideas for a meals before we go grocery shopping so I have all the stuff. It is a good feeling when I know I have meals prepared for my family. We still had a few lazy days where it was nice that I made to much so we could have leftovers! Lets hope I can keep this up, I can tell I am losing my energy!

Another was to workout consistently. Well I was doing really good with this but I haven’t walked in a couple days and I can totally tell the difference. And maybe that is why my energy is lacking. I have been painting my bedroom and bathroom with help of course and keeping my house clean so I am counting that as staying active! It is at least keeping me busy! Today I plan on starting the walking everyday again because my body can really feel the difference when I dont!

Another was be a more understanding mother and wife… I feel like I have been doing pretty good with this. My patience level has been way better and I think that I am keeping my angry moods in check! This one is so hard sometimes when your daughter tells you she wants to pee in her pants and does it! lol Seriously this little girl I think loves to get under my skin sometimes! But she is a sweet heart and I will keep her!

And last but not least I made the goal to be more in the know with our money! And thanks to Jessica for helping me figure out the spreadsheet I am doing good with this one! I have been really good about feeling everything out. It is so nice to know where all our money is going! I learned last month that we need to be careful on our eating out and try and be more frugal with our grocery shopping! Right after the new year we ate out 3 times and that really killed us but after that we did really good and hopefully this month we will do even better! So far we went our for my birthday but we had a free pizza so we are doing good! I think that I am probably annoying Tyler with all my questions and checking our accounts so often but I hope eventually he will appreciate the help!

Well I thought I made more goals but apparently not and that is probably a good thing.

My list of things that I wanted to do before the baby is almost done so now I need to think of some more ideas! I want to deep clean the house or really I dont want to but I know that my kitchen floor needs a good hand mopping job and my carpets need to be shampooed! So please please let my energy stay here at least for a few more weeks so I can have a nice clean house and nothing to do so I can sit on my butt and watch tv!

Happy Birthday ME!!!

Weren’t going to purchase it this early but since they upped our credit so we could do the no interest, I set up the delivery date for my Birthday. It was pretty funny telling Tyler that I got it! I pulled a Marian on him! But he was happy when he came home and saw it!  I love it! And I love the color of blue that we chose. The bathroom is painted that color to. Thank you Jeri for painting all the edges and the high parts since it probably isn’t safe for me to ever be on the top of a later especially when prego!

The bed is now quite a bit taller so it is a little bit of a pain when it comes to peeing a million times in the night. I hope I dont forget it is that tall and break my head! lol