I try...

I woke up this morning and told myself to be better! I got my workout done and my carpets shampooed and my laundry started and then I put Cutler down for a nap so I could work with Ronnee...  I try and try and she fights me! I feel like whatever I ask her to do she just does the opposite just to spite me! Like just now she came in with snot all over her face and I told her to blow her nose and she sucks in instead and smiles!!!   But back to learning... I count with her and do connect the dots with her and she deliberately ruins it and then giggles. I seriously dont know what to do and I feel like I am failing as a parent and she is only 3 1/2! We  have a long road ahead of us and I already want to throw in the towel! It is so embarrassing and I just can help but cry everytime I think about her!  I know she is smart and uses a vocabulary above her age and friendly and uses her manners and knows  more then she should but when it comes to the stuff that matters on paper for school she refuses to do anything for me! I try puzzles, activity books, flash cards and I am losing this huge battle! If it doesn't involve acting like a horse or playing with her dogs she wont to anything for me!