Life...

Trying to figure out how to put how I feel into words.... I really really really miss my house and life in Reno! I want to be able to go outside and water and take care of my flowers and grass! And let the kids out back to play and run on the grass. Parks are nice but having a kid friendly back yard is so nice. I really just miss taking care of my flowers! It is so therapeutic to me!  I miss my house and being able to take care of it. And it so weird to think of someone else living in it. I just hope and pray that they are taking care of my home as I would!
I miss my friends! Ronnee told me the other day that the problem is that she needs to live with Tristen! I know she misses them too! I miss Jen and our projects! I need a Jen here in Albuquerque! Someone to hang out with and do stuff with and kids for my kids to play with!  I miss going for walks and running into friendly neighbors that I know! Walking the neighborhood and the Molls inviting us in any day of the week to hang out!   I know that one day we will find tons of new friends to hang out with but right now I miss the Reno ones!
I went thru a rough few days where I wasn't even answering the phone! I am not sure what to do some days or how to make it thru the day or how to handle and deal with my kids! I am losing my patience especially with Ronnee. I am not being a very good friend or mother and I need to figure out how to be a better one!
Ronnee is to much like me in some ways so we clash. She is so stubborn and I need to figure out how to channel it in the right direction so she succeeds in all she does!

I need to figure out how to stay positive so that I can be the better mother! Some days I dont think I am cut out for this mom stuff!