Brooklyn's Softball Tournament!

On Friday morning I loaded up the kids bright and early and drove home to Albuquerque just to get back in the car with Tyler and the dogs and drive to Farmington to watch Brooklyn play softball!  The kids did awesome and it sure helped that Tulo and Dinger were going with us! Nothing makes Ronnee happier then having her dogs with her!  While there she thought she could just sleep in the kennel with the dogs! Of course it didn’t happen because she cant fit with the two of them! But she sure loved having them in the hotel room!

Brooklyn did an awesome job and it was so fun to be able to watch her!  This is why we wanted to move closer!

We got to take the kids swimming and learn that Cutler has no fear of water!  He would get mad when you would try and catch him.  He loves the water and his sister is so timid and takes a while to warm up to it! Kind of nice to have her like that because Cutler takes no time at all to jump in!

 

Trip to Sj for Grants Promotion!

And Aneron and Ivy dancing…

Playing at the park with cousins..

Shortly after swinging I put my camera in the carseat and it fell off the bench and shattered my lense! Lovely! So now 2 of my lenses are not working but thanks heavens for a 3rd one! Need to find some money and get it fixed or buy a new one whichever is cheaper!

We also got to do some gardening with Grandma…

Crazy haired girls!

Cutler was happy happy if he was outside! And if anyone was using the hose he would steal it and have his own water fight!

It was so awesome to be there for Grant’s promotion into High School! That kid is amazing! He had a trumpet solo and it was awesome! He has an amazing talent!

 

 

Acacia graduated also so it was nice to be there for her too!

Happy Day!

We are having a great day! It feels so good to write all this stuff down! Makes it easier to put it all behind and move forward!
I feel embarrassed that I have days like I do and am so negative and drag my kids into it. I really do love my kids and appreciate there stubbornness and all there other wonderful qualities!
We are getting better and reading and working with her! This parenting stuff sucks! Lol It has a ton of perks but man is it hard!   We are so blessed to have 2 cute healthy kids and I need to remind myself of that! Things could be a lot worse.
A few weeks back I started following this blog that is walking me thru a 12 week program to better myself! I am loving it and it is so helpful. I feel like it is really helping.
My goals are to eat healthy which I am doing because I following the 17 day diet!   Workout which I am doing the squat challenge, an arm workout, and an ab workout. Along with walking at least 3miles a day! I am working on being more positive!
Life is a rollercoaster!
Heading to good ole San Juan on Friday! Have I mentioned how nice it is to be so close to home!

As I lay in bed…

I can hear Tyler in with Ronnee in her bed reading stories and she is counting for him and playing along with all that he is doing.  My child is a smart cookie and it takes her daddy to it with her. She is a daddy’s girl all the way!
I am so grateful for Tyler. He must have realized what a hard time I have been having and stepped up where I  haven’t been able to. Man I am blessed to have him in my life!  Ronnee and I are to much alike in a lot of ways and we need him. He knows how to handle us both! Let’s hope one day her and I can figure out how to work with each other!
I am going to sleep tonight feeling a little better about life! Let’s hope I can continue to feel better and have a more positive attitude on life!
I love my children and husband!

I try...

I woke up this morning and told myself to be better! I got my workout done and my carpets shampooed and my laundry started and then I put Cutler down for a nap so I could work with Ronnee...  I try and try and she fights me! I feel like whatever I ask her to do she just does the opposite just to spite me! Like just now she came in with snot all over her face and I told her to blow her nose and she sucks in instead and smiles!!!   But back to learning... I count with her and do connect the dots with her and she deliberately ruins it and then giggles. I seriously dont know what to do and I feel like I am failing as a parent and she is only 3 1/2! We  have a long road ahead of us and I already want to throw in the towel! It is so embarrassing and I just can help but cry everytime I think about her!  I know she is smart and uses a vocabulary above her age and friendly and uses her manners and knows  more then she should but when it comes to the stuff that matters on paper for school she refuses to do anything for me! I try puzzles, activity books, flash cards and I am losing this huge battle! If it doesn't involve acting like a horse or playing with her dogs she wont to anything for me!

Life...

Trying to figure out how to put how I feel into words.... I really really really miss my house and life in Reno! I want to be able to go outside and water and take care of my flowers and grass! And let the kids out back to play and run on the grass. Parks are nice but having a kid friendly back yard is so nice. I really just miss taking care of my flowers! It is so therapeutic to me!  I miss my house and being able to take care of it. And it so weird to think of someone else living in it. I just hope and pray that they are taking care of my home as I would!
I miss my friends! Ronnee told me the other day that the problem is that she needs to live with Tristen! I know she misses them too! I miss Jen and our projects! I need a Jen here in Albuquerque! Someone to hang out with and do stuff with and kids for my kids to play with!  I miss going for walks and running into friendly neighbors that I know! Walking the neighborhood and the Molls inviting us in any day of the week to hang out!   I know that one day we will find tons of new friends to hang out with but right now I miss the Reno ones!
I went thru a rough few days where I wasn't even answering the phone! I am not sure what to do some days or how to make it thru the day or how to handle and deal with my kids! I am losing my patience especially with Ronnee. I am not being a very good friend or mother and I need to figure out how to be a better one!
Ronnee is to much like me in some ways so we clash. She is so stubborn and I need to figure out how to channel it in the right direction so she succeeds in all she does!

I need to figure out how to stay positive so that I can be the better mother! Some days I dont think I am cut out for this mom stuff!

So nice to be close...

Woke up Friday morning and at 10am got the idea to go to SJ and by 1pm I left my house and was on my way!

I got to go watch Aneron in her play! She is awesome! She did so good and was so fun to watch. So much sass and character in that little body! She made a small part into the best part that everyone remembers! Each night she played different parts and I was happy to watch them all!  Sadly I only got pics on one night…

We also got to watch her play soccer!

 

The new cheese face!

We also got to be there for Benjamin’s baby blessing! Man I am so glad to be close enough to make it all these things I normally had to miss!