Happy Day!

We are having a great day! It feels so good to write all this stuff down! Makes it easier to put it all behind and move forward!
I feel embarrassed that I have days like I do and am so negative and drag my kids into it. I really do love my kids and appreciate there stubbornness and all there other wonderful qualities!
We are getting better and reading and working with her! This parenting stuff sucks! Lol It has a ton of perks but man is it hard!   We are so blessed to have 2 cute healthy kids and I need to remind myself of that! Things could be a lot worse.
A few weeks back I started following this blog that is walking me thru a 12 week program to better myself! I am loving it and it is so helpful. I feel like it is really helping.
My goals are to eat healthy which I am doing because I following the 17 day diet!   Workout which I am doing the squat challenge, an arm workout, and an ab workout. Along with walking at least 3miles a day! I am working on being more positive!
Life is a rollercoaster!
Heading to good ole San Juan on Friday! Have I mentioned how nice it is to be so close to home!

As I lay in bed…

I can hear Tyler in with Ronnee in her bed reading stories and she is counting for him and playing along with all that he is doing.  My child is a smart cookie and it takes her daddy to it with her. She is a daddy’s girl all the way!
I am so grateful for Tyler. He must have realized what a hard time I have been having and stepped up where I  haven’t been able to. Man I am blessed to have him in my life!  Ronnee and I are to much alike in a lot of ways and we need him. He knows how to handle us both! Let’s hope one day her and I can figure out how to work with each other!
I am going to sleep tonight feeling a little better about life! Let’s hope I can continue to feel better and have a more positive attitude on life!
I love my children and husband!

I try...

I woke up this morning and told myself to be better! I got my workout done and my carpets shampooed and my laundry started and then I put Cutler down for a nap so I could work with Ronnee...  I try and try and she fights me! I feel like whatever I ask her to do she just does the opposite just to spite me! Like just now she came in with snot all over her face and I told her to blow her nose and she sucks in instead and smiles!!!   But back to learning... I count with her and do connect the dots with her and she deliberately ruins it and then giggles. I seriously dont know what to do and I feel like I am failing as a parent and she is only 3 1/2! We  have a long road ahead of us and I already want to throw in the towel! It is so embarrassing and I just can help but cry everytime I think about her!  I know she is smart and uses a vocabulary above her age and friendly and uses her manners and knows  more then she should but when it comes to the stuff that matters on paper for school she refuses to do anything for me! I try puzzles, activity books, flash cards and I am losing this huge battle! If it doesn't involve acting like a horse or playing with her dogs she wont to anything for me!

Life...

Trying to figure out how to put how I feel into words.... I really really really miss my house and life in Reno! I want to be able to go outside and water and take care of my flowers and grass! And let the kids out back to play and run on the grass. Parks are nice but having a kid friendly back yard is so nice. I really just miss taking care of my flowers! It is so therapeutic to me!  I miss my house and being able to take care of it. And it so weird to think of someone else living in it. I just hope and pray that they are taking care of my home as I would!
I miss my friends! Ronnee told me the other day that the problem is that she needs to live with Tristen! I know she misses them too! I miss Jen and our projects! I need a Jen here in Albuquerque! Someone to hang out with and do stuff with and kids for my kids to play with!  I miss going for walks and running into friendly neighbors that I know! Walking the neighborhood and the Molls inviting us in any day of the week to hang out!   I know that one day we will find tons of new friends to hang out with but right now I miss the Reno ones!
I went thru a rough few days where I wasn't even answering the phone! I am not sure what to do some days or how to make it thru the day or how to handle and deal with my kids! I am losing my patience especially with Ronnee. I am not being a very good friend or mother and I need to figure out how to be a better one!
Ronnee is to much like me in some ways so we clash. She is so stubborn and I need to figure out how to channel it in the right direction so she succeeds in all she does!

I need to figure out how to stay positive so that I can be the better mother! Some days I dont think I am cut out for this mom stuff!

So nice to be close...

Woke up Friday morning and at 10am got the idea to go to SJ and by 1pm I left my house and was on my way!

I got to go watch Aneron in her play! She is awesome! She did so good and was so fun to watch. So much sass and character in that little body! She made a small part into the best part that everyone remembers! Each night she played different parts and I was happy to watch them all!  Sadly I only got pics on one night…

We also got to watch her play soccer!

 

The new cheese face!

We also got to be there for Benjamin’s baby blessing! Man I am so glad to be close enough to make it all these things I normally had to miss!

Triathlon or at least my attempt!

80’s retro themed!  The kids face explain how I feel!  Tyler did awesome and finished the whole thing! I on the other hand had finished the run and 8 miles of the bike ride with a flat tire then I had the people take me in so I didn’t get to finish. To put it mildly I was/am really annoyed by it.  But I can say I tried and never plan on even trying again! Ty on the other hand is planning to do it again every year! lol He just needs a street bike so he can keep up with the rest of the bikers! Tyler was riding about 9 miles per hour while the street bikes were riding in the 20 mile per hour range! HUGE difference!  

It was a fun weekend still because Mickey Fam and the in-laws came! Always nice to have family visit!

Sucks getting so far behind!

Once I get all the pictures added then I think I will be caught up. NEVER EVER LET YOURSELF GET SO FAR BEHIND!

Our time in AZ in Feb/March

Basketball!

We were so lucky to spend time in AZ also! It was so fun to watch my nieces and nephews play basketball! I am so happy we are closer now so I can see more of all these sweet kids! 

Our time in Colorado in February

Brooklyn Basketball

Riding a pony

Kite flying

Snow

 

We got to be homeless in Colorado for 3 weeks and it was a lot of fun!  We are so lucky to have families willing to take us in and spoil us rotten!